"It's in your face but you cant grab it."

"I reject your happiness, I spit at your suicide but I honor your reasons to believe".

I’m love driven, maybe that seems to be the
problem. I’m drunk of it. I live an acid trip of
classic romance and deep affection. I’ll notice things
around you that you’ll never see; things that I’d call
a vice, a dusk of a life story. I’m not smart and I
don’t wish to be. I don’t have talents; I can just “Do
Things”. I’m not special, I’m just a retard that cant
be like everyone else; those groupies, chatty, fucken
around, laughing and smiling like if it’s a carnival
ride and they do this everyday. They all make me sick.
They think they have it all. They know exactly what
they want and how to get it and they get it. They all
have a great life,

“Brava”.

I don’t have a great life, or a good one. I have
problems everyday, I have a thousand things I wanted
to do in the past and present but never succeeded. I’m
never mentally healthy so I let all my opportunities
pass me by. Technically, I’m already dead. I’m a ghost
in a machine. I cover my heart with ice. But I cover
those close to me with only warm honey and flowers. I
give but I’m not really good with taking. Or maybe I
can, it’s just I seem to always take the wrong things.
What an irony, don’t you think?

My life is irony. Everything I do will do the
opposite effect. Everything I want to do is doomed to
fail; everything I don’t want to do is inevitable.
People abhor me or is it life it self that has hate
against me or is it both? Me against the world? Not
really surprising. “I’m high on life” at least that’s
what I always say. The first and last one I held close
to was when I was 14. Did not last long, did not end
well and it took a few hurtful notes until my softmore
year to realize. I’ve gotten over it. As for love it
self, that’s a different fable to tell.

I’m in love with love but maybe that’s why I am
the thing I have become.

I’m love driven, maybe that is the problem.

"Everyday something hits me, I'm so cold."

Ima Rhode Island boy, easy going, I write, Im vivid, probably more then I care to
admit, I play a guitar(electric)and keys, computer-
internet fanatic, like games, love music(Matthew Good is God!),hiking (anywhere
away from people),like food; mostly Italian, movie lover, I'm oobatz(crazy)but only
to few people, I suck badly as a conversation starter basically cos there's nothing in
my life to talk about most of the time, thats why I love being crazy to people
because I love making people laugh and make my self laugh because I feel it's the
only communication I could give and the only thing I have to offer, never take me in
an intellectual conversation, I like to dream and visualize, a lot of times thats all I
do with my life, I love the beach, Golf and bowling are the only sports I can enjoy
enough to walk out and say to my self "It was worth it.", Arcades are the shyt!, I'm
not a 6flags,DornyPark,Universal fan but I enjoy Carnivals and fairs(The Wicked
Clown in me ;1), I want to go on The Farris Wheel and most of all, the Mall is like
my second home town.

"Keep it real, nobody follows a Saint."

I like people with honesty and virtues.
I abhor violence, cliques, religion, politics, moronic conduct and
people who are visually impaired by there own vice. Wisdom doesnt
seem to be peoples cup of tea and now there inept and unbalanced
judgment and galling misfortune is the most sufficient distinction of
there own personal devil.
I disown politics; Im not a Republican or a Democrat.
I feel that both are guilty of magical thinking.
I have no father. My mom side of the family and my brother are the only family I got.

I dont wanta hate people unless if people give me a reason to.

Word of advice for anyone with a Pisces sign (especially the ones with no cusps):, Never be a friend with a Gemini. They are thoughtless and will judge you in a drop of a hat. They are intellectual communicators (not feelings). They don’t care about your deep emotions and dreaminess. They’ll think you’re weak and easy to push down., There sarcasm is most uncalled for. Arrogant and two faced., You are better off making friends that live in the sea.

I'll like anything that turns my shit gold., Matthew Good, Nine Inch Nails, Type O Negative, Nirvana, Alice In Chains, Nightwish, 51Peg. Just to name a few.

Same with music

Same with music and movies.

The Only Astrology Book You'll Ever Need, The Darkside of the Zodiac, The Complete Book of Astrology, The Zodiac Signs of Love, Dante’s Inferno, (anything by Dante I'll read.)